The 30 Day Challenge- Day 5

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Burney Falls out in Northern California. It may be in the U.S. and I may have not went to many places, but I think it may have been the most beautiful place I've been, or will ever see.

The 30 Day Challenge- Day 4

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

For some unknown reason, I like to daydream in every spare moment of my time. I always end up letting my mind wander and imagining things so different, life experiences, how I was born, where I live, my job, anything and everything really. Whenever I'm done daydreaming, sometimes I'm glad that it was only a thought, but sometimes I just really wish it was reality.

The 30 Day Challenge- Day 3

Day 03- A picture of your favorite band and why

There is seriously something about Paramore that I have loved ever since the first time I've heard Hayley Williams sing. I think the reason I love Paramore so much is because how I can relate to a lot of the songs, and plus some of the lyrics are just so moving. I write a lot, books, poems, and I can always find a Paramore song that will set my mood, that can help me write. They're a great band that had big hopes and dreams, and made it happen. I love Paramore, and they're always going to be a big favorite of mine♥

The 30 Day Challenge- Day 2

Day 02- The meaning behind your name

Quinn: The girl name Quinn is also used as a boy name, with the latter form being more popular. It is pronounced KWIHN †. Quinn has its origins in the Celtic language. It is used largely in English and Irish. The name Quinn means 'counsel'. It represents the transferred use of the surname as a given name. See Quinn for more info. Forms of the name include the name Kwenn, the English and Irish Quina, the Irish Quinna, the name Quinne, and the name Quynn. Another form of Quinn is the Irish spelling variant Quin. Quinn is rather popular as a baby girl name. The name has been growing in popularity since the 1990s. Its usage peaked modestly in 2009 with 0.031% of baby girls being named Quinn. It had a ranking of #486 then. Among all girl names in its family, Quinn was the most regularly used in 2009. Quinn has mainly been a boy name in the last century. There were 93% more boys than girls who were namedQuinn in 2008.

LeAnne: The girl name Leanne is pronounced LiyAEN- †. Leanne has its origins in the English and French languages. It is used largely in the English language. The name wascoined recently as a combination of Lee and Anne. In Latin, the word "LeAnne" means "lioness", and thus the name may be a feminine variant of Leo or Leon. LeAnne is uncommon as a baby girl name. At the modest height of its usage in 1969, 0.045% of baby girls were given the name Leanne. It had a ranking of #321 then. The baby name has dropped out of favor since then, and is of only irregular use now. In 2009, within the family of girl names directly linked toLeAnne, Anne was the most widely used.

Bateman: One of the most popular personal names which later was "borrowed" as a surname was Bartholomew. The ancient Greek and Hebrew word meaning "one abounding in furrows", i.e., "a farmer". The name was particularly popular with the Crusaders, but the main development of the name was associated with St. Bartholomew, and came with the 1066 Norman Conquest. The modern spellings ofBateman, Batman, Battman and Baitman translates as "the friend or servant of Bart".

The 30 Day Challenge- Day 1

Well, since I obviously have such a problem with updating, I've found something that will help me get into the habit of updating everyday! It's a 30 Day Challenge that gives me something new to post everyday! So stay tuned loves, and here we go with day one!

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

1. I was born in California on my father's birthday and on four other friend's birthdays.

2. I have an obsession with English royal history.

3. I have over 2,000 songs on my itunes and I am no where near finished with it yet.

4. I've dyed my hair every color imaginable.

5. I have an older half sister that I have never met, but I would like to.

6. I'm terrified to walk through a haunted house, but I love working at one.

7. I can't stand it when people touch my radio in my car, it makes me want to murder something... seriously.

8. I adore the color pink... Look at my hot pink cell phone for crying out loud!

9. I sang in a choir for eight years.

10. The Little Mermaid is my favorite Disney movie.

11. When I play Bejeweled I have to be listening to music and talking to myself out loud to get a good score.

12. I hate the color orange even though I oddly look good in it.

13. I rarely like watching cartoons.

14. I have to write on a daily basis or I get very fidgety and irritable.

15. I want to go to school for cosmetology, or writing.

ANYWAYS...

Well, things have changed a hell of a lot since I was last on here. I've made friends, lost friends, found love and family in people, lost love and family in others. I have to admit that my life has never been so hard, nor have I ever been so genuinely miserable. Yeah, I have depression, but I've never felt like this before, and I hate it. I've lost a best friend, I've lost a father, I've lost my dog, I've lost my home, I've lost the life that I've been living almost entirely. I feel like everything around me is in pieces, and I don't know how to fix it. My dad, my dog, and his stupid girlfriend now live in Alabama while my brother and I are here, in Ohio, homeless. I work three jobs now and live in between my friend's houses and never know what will happen next week, I only know I just have to sleep, eat, work, and repeat day after day.

Life has never been so dull, or lonely.

I just want to wake up and this be a horrible nightmare, or even to turn back time a few months. I want to make a better life for myself, I want to do things that help my future and that make me happy. My girlfriend and I broke up a few days ago, but that's not really that big a deal to me, we weren't serious or anything. What is a big deal to me is that I think I'm in love with someone, and I won't say who or if it's a guy or girl. I'm so confused about them and it's driving me crazy, but I just can't say anything. It would complicate things far too much right now, and I already have enough problems to deal with.

Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment, time to get on some lovely medications. T_T Lord knows I need them.